Miiamo

i have a new journal.

fxck this one. fxck this life. i'm starting over.

are you happy with yourself? i fxcking hope so.

ask me through AIM what the name is, and i might tell you. but probably not.

i'm keeping this one as private as possible.

The World Is MINE! by Demonac
Name:
You will conquer:	Asia (except for Japan, because it turns out their "police" have heavy weapons and attack helicopters).
Your title will be:	Primogen
You will succeed by:	Building a Weather machine add-on for your Palm Pilot.
Your Enforcers will be:	Conan Obrien's hair.
Your first act as ruler:	Have Pinky and the Brain imprisoned (just in case).
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

... just so everyone knows.. i would be honored to be supported by Conan O'Briens hair.. and i would NEVER jail pinky and the brain. GIMME A BREAK, PEOPLE.. pinky and the brain?! are they nuts?!

this journal is now fully friends only.

i've had it for like... 3 years now or something crazy like that.

and only now have i wanted it to be private. so it is.

Date created: 2002-04-27 23:54:58 <~~ WOW. ... its going on three years with this journal. how crazy.

...still friends only. add me if you wana read. i'll more then likely add you back. if you're cool.

well... things have been fun.

my new years rocked pretty nice. went to this party in newton falls with niko and leanna. the theme was a 50's prom night, i think. so all the guys were dressed as greasers, and had fake black eyes, and the girls had polk-a-dot dresses, and rach wore this beautiful pink fluff dress (that i think was chiffon, but i can't remember) and she looked amazing. so did leanna.

everyone got pretty tipsy except maybe bj and myself, and john. hahaha. but thats because john and i don't drink, and bj was the driver. so, no drinking for him. but it was nice to spend my new years with him. he's always good company. i kind of regret messing things up between us. i mean, for a while, things got really weird, but thats because he really started to like me, and i started falling for dan again, but i should have just stuck to it. i mean, he's really awesome, and he would come into work all the time and see me, and call me when he wouldn't get to see me to just say good night, and stuff like that.

he's such a good guy. that i get scared i'm going to start having an uber crush on him again or something. he let me use his scarf as a pillow at eatnpark, too.

but anyways - the party was funny. it was all the guys from the band 'from a second story window'.. haha. despite all the horrible things some of those guys did to me when i was in middle school (like huffman, and roscoe and misko) they were really nice and cordial last night. they'd all been drinking and were loud and stuff, and nick kept laying his head on my lap, and then laid his head on leanna's lap, and they started talking. it was really cute, because leanna was sloshed, and she kept apologizing for being drunk, and he'd just laugh. she stayed there last night, and i hope she's okay. i plan on calling her this afternoon, after the hangover is dimmed a bit.

after the party, we went to eat and park because perkins was slammed. everyone had to sober up. hahahaha. it was okay. i didn't get charged for my fruit bowl. only my coffee, which rocked. the waitress was really nice, but had a weird name, and i remember trying to remind myself to remember how to pronounce it, incase i ever come back because then i'd sit with her. but i don't. so i feel bad.

i want to move away to cleveland. thats my long term goal for this year. i really want too, though. i want to go up there, find a place to stay, find a good job that pays enough so i can live up there, and make a life for myself. i'm tired of this shit hole known as warren ohio. i can't do anything with myself here. and i hate that.


..wow. this entry is long. sorry guys. i'm done rambling. hope everyone is well. and happy new year.

oh.. and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAN KRAFFT..

haha.

You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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i took off IP logging.and i stopped screening.

so nows your chance to tell me whatever you want. tell me a secret. tell me a story. do whatever you want, but do it anonymously. so i don't know who it is.

im going to stop logging and screening all together until something makes me start doing it again. until then.

if you get bored.. just tell me something.

You are closest to the Lord Ganesha. Althogh he has
an interseting feature of looking like and
elephant, his power makes him strong and
faithful. Lord Ganesh is the God to remove all
obstacles in life. And because of his unique
figure, one of his forces is that he looks
beyond one's outer apearance. You are most like
this Great God because you are strong and not
all that judgemental but, you are human and it
can be something in you like all the rest of
us. Well Lord Ganesh like many other gods and
goddess are just all incarnations of the one
almighty god.


What Hindu God or Goddess are you like?
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

so.. does it sound like me? .. tell me what you think..

oh.. i've started screening comments, because i got a really ignorant one the other day. i deleted it, but i'm screening them now. just so everyone knows. i am getting your comments.

plans for Fla and mississippi,are finalized,!

whoa damn, i'm exciteddddd.

braden needs to call me. so does brandon. so i can tell them what i'm doing, and where i'm going to be. ^____________________^ oh so excited.

i am FINALLY getting out of this goddamned state for more then an hour at a time.

anyways - last night at perkins was fun. i met this kid Joel there. he was really nice. he introduced himself because he said i looked mighty lonely sitting by myself while rachelle bought a calender for the Ill Children. haha. so we talked for a bit, and i'm sure i'll see him there again since i'm always there. haha. its become routine again, to go to perkins. haha. oh well.

then i went home, and tony called. *shoots self in head* .. i like that kid. i really do. but i really wonder what his deal is sometimes. i never let him see me cry, but i seem to always end up in tears when i'm leaving his house. he goes from cuddling and watching movies all snuggled together, to saying i should leave now, and he'll call me sometime when he's not busy. i duno. completely bipolar, i think. and thats too bad, because he seemed like an okay guy. and he's kinda cute.

i hope everything works out for rachelle. i know the next couple days are probably going to be rough, depending on how last night went when we all left perkins. i hope it went okay. the way she wants it to be, at least.

i haven't done enough laundry in the past couple days, and i only have two black bras clean, and a bright green one. ... and my shirt that i have to wear today for the white glove inspection is white. BLECKKKK. either way, i'm probably going to get yelled at, so i'm bringing a sweater just in case. *note to self* come home tonight and do laundry*

i smell like a mix between citrus and chocolate. its weird, but its nice. haha. i shaved with different soap then i normally do, and it has a really citrus'y scent. mmm. haha. chocolate covered oranges, is what i'm getting at. thats what i smell like. HAHA.

okay. i'm outta here.work at 5.

so many questions right now. so many offers. so many thoughts running through my mind.

phone call from my mother = lots of tears, and offers to be taken away.

i'll only talk about this to you in confidence, if you ask. even then, i may not speak at all.

do you want to move away? *insert dream state* of course. ive always wanted to move away.

once again. i'll speak of this only in confidence. its so secret. so sad. but so happy, at the same time.

shh.

i bought the cutest guchies today. EVER. they look so cute on. and they make me feel really cute, too. they're more pairs of those short type ones. and i think i'm going to go back tomorrow and pick up a couple of other pairs of the boy cuts, because those are cute too. rachelle bought a really cute pair of guchies too, that were 16 bucks. but well worth it, because they're super cute too. <333 yay for new undies!

... in other news, i also bought a pair of jeans and four tee's. because i'm a teeshirt fanatic. one has Ralph from the Simpsons and it says "I'm Special!" .. eee!! i love it. the others are just cute little tee's that are from aeropastle that have cute stuff on the front. the jeans are super, but i upped almost 2 whole Target sizes!!! i'm in a 7 now! damn! where the hell did THAT come from?? AND i guess i'm now a 7 in Zooks, too, because i couldn't breathe in a 5. i'm glad i'm getting curves. i used to always be so skinny and tiny. but i definately don't like having to tell the attendant to help me get a bigger size because my ass inflated somewhere along the lines. HAHAHA.

okaay - so after my mini shopping binge, i have car insurance as well as a payment, so that money is set aside. yay. haha. then i'm broke again until the next paycheck.



Happy Halloween again!

i just got off the phone with brandon which was cool. but i can't sleep, so i'm here. i decided to see if his friend had replied to the comment i left, so i went to his lj. and found a kind of offending comment, that i'm not sure if it was directed towards me, or not. who knows. but it said something about adding girls to brandons list. and i'm not sure how she meant it. but my name was mentioned in the entry. so. i duno. but i think i was more offended for brandon,then myself. i mean, i could give two shits about her, i have no idea who she is. and i think i like it that way.

anyways - work today was really cute. lots of little trick or treaters. i love watching little kids get all dressed up in their outfits. i love handing out Cavities too,.. Candy.. i mean handing out Candy. i bet dentists love this time of year. now, and easter are probably really good for dentists. but anyways - we handed out candy, and stuff at work so it made the day a lot more fun. tony was there.. but. i guess i can just ignore him. he's mean, sometimes. my mom came down and bought a shit load of candy, then only had like, 10 trick-or-treaters, so now she has an excess of candy all over. OOOO... i'm writing a letter to Rite-Aid, to see why our store can't donate things that are priced down to "0" to shelters and other places. we trashed $300 worth of those Ferreo Rocher candies, and they weren't even outdated!!! just marked to zero!!!! i was livid! do you know how happy a kid at a shelter would have been to get candies on halloween. i mean, come on. thats crap. PLUS, we have a whole bunch of make up that could be donated to the local womens shelter, because i know "Someplace Safe" does the whole makeover thing, for women who are trying to get out in the work force. i think that it would be good to start collecting for stuff to donate to local shelters and places that need it as Christmas Season kicks into gear, and people need to feel loved. i'm on a mission. and i hope it works. *crosses fingers*

after work, i went to perkins.. that was cool. bill left a little early, but rachelle, tara and i sat around for a bit. then my all time favorite Jason Knutt came over and started talking to us. Jason is so awesome. He's got a girlfriend!! yay!! i'm so excited for him. he deserves it. he started listing his friends that i could date. hahaha. it was silly. within the list, was russ love, aj sabino (who is actually a really awesome guy!), and regis. hahaha. i laughed, because they're all friends with dan, which is why i don't think i'd date any of them, but i think they're all really awesome guys. so we all sat and talked for a while, then left.

and here i sit. at the end, and back at the beginning.

i'm not sure what to say in my letter to Rite-Aid. Oooo.. at work, i'm now in charge of the Beauty Quadrant. HAHA. i've got a new job title. even though i still run register and am everyones bitch.

<333

Happy Halloweeeeen everyone!

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
unvwho goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as 80's Rocker.
Alfarif gives you 6 blue coffee-flavoured hard candies.
ashy11223 tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
bleedingsoul13 tricks you! You get a used tissue.
gothonprozac gives you 4 dark green spearmint-flavoured gummies.
zackv gives you 13 mauve apple-flavoured pieces of taffy.
fullblownchaos tricks you! You get a piece of string.
intomylungs gives you 1 blue lemon-flavoured hard candies.
heartonfire gives you 9 light green blueberry-flavoured jelly beans.
unvwho ends up with 32 pieces of candy, a used tissue, and a piece of string.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
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peircing or tattoo?

which do you think? .. lemme know.

i'm in the toss about two different things. and i wana know what everyone out there likes. if you get bored, drop a line and lemme know. maybe you guys' opinions will help to sway my way of thinking.

but probably not.

okay.. who called me from a private number???

i didn't answer because i was sleeping. sorry.

i got an xanga.

i think i might try to keep that one a little more private then this one. but still let people see it. just not tell as many folks. meh. its on the internet, so thats kind of a oxymoron if you think about it.

i'll definately still update this beast, because livejournal is my love. but i'm gona try this xanga

LOOK. i followed ryans lead, and filled out a survey.

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why does everyone else in the world have an xanga and not me?


i feel like a loser.


in other news: i'm very tired and i work at 5.

that is all.

last night i went to a haunted house with bethany and a bunch of her friends. i think my favorite out of them all was Curtis. he was fun tims. i made him hold my hand going through the haunted house, as well as another one of the boys that were there, but i can't remmeber his name. he was cute though. i remember that.

mmm.. then i came home, and laid around and did nothing.. i did talk to aaron on the phone until like, 3am, though. which was cool, i guess. he's supposed to call me sometime today, but i'm not sure if he will or not. we're supposed to hang out. but i don't know if that will happen either.

it was nice, though. i must admit. we talked a lot about the weekend that i broke up with him, and made a lot of realizations. which some were good, and some wheren't so good, but at least they were made and finally out in the open. i really hurt him, and i hurt myself.. and thats no good. i duno.. i duno why. that question has definately been plaguing my mind since i've talked to him. "why" .. esp. for everything to happen with dan that did... aaron and i had a great relationship where we never fought, we always enjoyed one anothers company.. and then, i just ended it. but i loved dan. i loved him a lot, and i still do. i love them both to death. they're great guys... i just wish that things with dan, didn't feel the way they did, and that i could finally understand how someone can wake up one day, and "not love" someone else... just like that.. like a blink of your eye. you never realize what you have, until everythings gone, and you sit alone and realize that you have nothing. meh. oh well.


i don't want many things, but companionship is something that i'll always crave. i never want much more then that. it just kind of ends up like that.

listening to A Perfect Circle. this is good stuff. it made me cry earlier.

my neck is sore, i must have slept funny.